well~

ORZ. the longer i keep posting here, the more i run our of title ideas.
anyway, i don't think it matters much

i just thought, since i'm in first year college right now and i'm still adjusting to my new environment and shit (although i don't really need to adjust that much since i've been in the same university when i was in high school but still) that i needed more friends. i have classmates, yeah whatever. i don't really get along with them so much. it's not that i hate them, i just don't really get along with them. our attitudes don't jive, they practically possess every typical detail that i don't like in a person which the more i find annoying. i just can't stand their jokes and shit. well, it goes far more than jokes though. i really can't stand them. they try too much to make themselves stand out which i think is really fucked up. i know it's not my business to mind their screwy business but i can't help it. i'm with them almost 8 hours a day for 5 days it'd be impossible not to notice them. hm. now that i realize it, they must be doing their jobs pretty well.

yes, i'm a loner but it doesn't mean i'm emo. i just don't like the company of others every now and then. sometimes i just want to be alone. in a convenience store in a hospital, away from all the random noise. oh yeah, i talk to them once in a while but not to the extent that we'll be hanging around together. not in this mawfackin life time.


i just wish i'd make more "good" friends. good influences. not shit-like people. yeah, i've been through alot of bad times with some people even when i was in gradeschool, there are times that i couldn't really forget how bad they made me feel even the teachers. highscool was my refuge somehow, i met my classmates who were really good to me so i'm kinda having difficulty breaking chains with them and i don't see any point separating from them. i really like them.

i wish i'd make more friends. not my classmates, other than my friends now. probably friends from other colleges/courses and other year levels. well, i have one or two but the other one doesn't really count. we only talk when we need something from each other, and the other one, yeah well, we're kinda good. already have nicknames for each other, but then she has her own friends and i have mine and we only talk over the internet.

well, i guess it'll be up to me to pave the way for friendship. i shouldn't really be very picky.

oh well. i've let out my emo urges for today. it's 12 06 am here but i'm still doing my reviewer.
it's good to pass by here every now and then.
i love my blog. never gonna leave this.