Come what may

Despite of my various attempts to make myself feel better and to raise my esteem for atleast a little bit. Here comes life, entering once again to make a scene of utter destruction of my tiny regards and self-respect. Sigh~

There seems to be something wrong in how rapture would cooperate with me. It's kinda getting annoying already. Isn't life worn-out of treating me this way for the past years? I just wanted for something that would make me happy and satisfied. Is it THAT difficult to give it to me? In spite of giving everything I could give? Really?

I can stand seeing others delighted with all their comings and goings. I know very well that with a good reason they deserve it. What I can't stand is the fact that I'm lingering out in the obscure tunnel of slump.

This girl left no stone unturned. Gave all that she could give and yet, this. Downright despondency. It is really dejecting.

I try my best not to show it because I know of some who would be thrilled in certain people's lapse. I don't want ending up looking like a loser nor a has-been. It's just too cutting.

I actually don't agree of calling myself a has-been. It's not yet over. There's more to come than just this. The battle just started and I'm ready than ever. Defeat isn't an option here. The best has yet to come...atleast for me.

Please life, go easy on me. Throw one problem at a time. I may not be able to handle it.

-Raichan-