Insomnia is bad

Yes. What the title says. Insomnia is bad.

I'm not kidding. Aside from sleepless nights my brain gets idle and just keeps on allowing random thoughts to enter. For some reason I can't command my brain to stop it, I know it sounds silly but it's true. No matter how hard I try to get rid of bad thoughts it just keeps coming back anyway.

Okay, what exactly are these bad thoughts? I'm talking about yaoi. I guess yaoi was too much for me the last time that I prayed so hard just to forget those rated 18+ images. I thought that I completely forgot about it but then I guess there's still small portion of memory left from the images that I've encountered. ; 3 ; oh geez.

So, since I was tortured by bad images the other night, my mind was conditioned in liking yaoi for atleast a day. I tried to control myself but shit it didn't work. I was forced to draw something mild. (image here: http://ohkane.blogspot.com)

Obviosuly, that's how far explicit as I can do and I can only do it by words anyway. There's no way in hell that I can draw something that goes beyond that. Besides, I'm not inlove with the thought that Mixed up turns out into something gay.

I have to admit that seeing Haki becoming all gay-ish like that is nice but I don't think I can handle hardcoreness just yet. Maybe when I get to 18 or maybe when I'm 30. lol!

I stopped reading J!boys (that's the only yaoi I read anyway). The two semes are hot but not what they're doing. I guess reference photos for the shounen ai version of Mixed up just has to come from other tamer boy love manga that I am able to handle.

Life lesson here is, if you think you're not emotionally prepared for hot yaoi then don't even think of reading it because once your mind goes blank and enters the state of being idle, there are certain thoughts that you aren't prepared for.

Oh man.

-Raichan-