I...

...feel so incompetent. As an artist and as a photographer. Well, I just started photography weeks ago so I guess I shouldn't feel bad about my skills so far. But what really is bugging me is my oh so called "talent". I don't feel it. Really. I've been drawing since I was in Grade 4. Yes, I admit that there were improvements but right now, I feel I'm really going in a slow pace.

I dunno really why I keep on beating myself up with this issue over and over again but I just can't help it. I always find ways to improve like browsing art sites and using manga as reference. It's just that, everytime I look at other artists' drawings which are 10 times better than mine, this feeling of beating myself up (not meant literally) occurs to me. Especially if those great drawings were made by artists who are younger than me I start talking to myself like, "Oh man. I wasn't even able to do that when I was his/her age. I suck."

ASNKNS!! I feel so down. Insecure much! I gotta do something about this habit of mine.

-Raichan-